December 24 What is Christmas? Yes, I know that is when Santa Claus comes and we all eat turkey back or done with varying degrees of expertise, but what really is Christmas?
At Christmas (capitalized) is held that Jesus of Nazareth was born more than two thousand years. Well, we celebrate those who believe that Jesus came to redeem the sins of the world. To me, that Jesus was just a great prophet, Christmas means more than I have to meet ( sometimes unsuccessfully) with the people they want.
Por eso, cuando mi papá si se pudo ir a un viaje que ya habíamos planeado en familia y nosotros no, me entró el miedito de pasar la fecha sin el. ¡La primera vez en mi vida! No sabía si me gustaba o me daba pavor, pero tenía la angustia atorada en la garganta.
Con el paso del tiempo se me fue convirtiendo en morbo de saber qué es una Navidad que no es familiar al cien por ciento. El plan que tenía para con mi hermano eran unos sándwiches y acaso un brindis, pero cuando me dijo que la novia ya lo tenía apartado, vi una oportunidad más extrema: Pasar la fecha solo.
Y así I am, despite many invitations. No no, seriously, thank you, but on 24 December is (and remains) a date familiar to me. Be a special guest at a party in which the family should be together is ... uncomfortable. Do not get me wrong, just tell me what I think. Also I'm not really alone, my mom made this makes little while pulling the rod in the bathroom and turning on the shower.
breaded chicken dinner ( which is my favorite dish of life ), cream of mushroom, a piece of cake I bought at the late and tired jartísima cider I like. Kindle an incense of cinnamon and eat calmly facades. It's like a romantic dinner with oneself, to pretend.
But before that, I have to confess that in 2010 it just was not as good for me or anyone else, as seems to be the popular clamor. Flashazos suddenly I have very hard for my mom, nostalgia for better times and worse I can not tell anyone because they are very mine, that no one understands like I understand it. I got a credit card which I pay thunder fingers and I still burns in his hand every time I see a sign with the magic words " months without interest." I have, with a little luck and a lot of fear, a little more responsibility at work and some decisions have not been easy. Wool, however, does not grow at the same pace and I get very nervous that one day have to say is that I have no. " Dance, my passion, as most of you know I got more satisfaction stomach pains in the first half of the year. Many plans and so much desired displaced by those 3 scary words are "I have no time ." Few games played, a few books and read many accounts biting the pen trying to reconcile the " should " and "have ." Little love, and apparently there is only a bit of wishful thinking and a lot of enthusiasm, which feels harder when the cold and you're alone in bed trying to sleep.
Many adulthood (not adultery) for one year. I went in, important things happen in my life, madrazo to adulthood and still I refuse. I do not want to become the lord of eternal suit and stern face that he knows no more satisfaction than collecting every fortnight. It makes me very melancholy when the most powerful issue he faced was an exam time, and even that was negotiable.
I bring all that in mind, and more. But writing was always a good way out, and also made a ratote not updated the blog. It's my way catharsis and to put things in perspective before we change this year.
You will excuse the phrase
nerve and cut, and depression that could have caused. I know it was not all bad (I made new friends, me being promoted at work, I'm dancing again, maybe make a big trip next year ...), but now I chilletas. Let me be.
pledge that New Year (yes I'm excited, it should be clear) I'll be better ... well sure you read this and I fell asleep and sunrises better. Meanwhile, hopefully this year have taken on Christmas Eve fell on Friday, the day is magical . Water with what they want, they can become reality.
If not, always be on 31 December. Abused.
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Hearing: Ivri Lider - Mike ( ... can you kiss my hand and make it go away? )
